I woke up crying this morning, and I am not sure why. I want to visit my mother today. She is in a nursing home now with dementia. I have not been able to see her for a number of reasons. I also have to clean out her things, but I feel stuck, like my body and mind are against me.

I am not sure what to say. I am sad. I know others are struggling worse than I am right now. I should count my blessings. So I will:

• I have some really close friends that care.
• I get to spend time with Miley.
• Our 4 remaining kids are ok.
• I have Tim.
• Our new goal is to pray together each night.
• My in-laws are ok.

See ya tomorrow.

Jaclyn